The rambling ramblings of a rambling rambler.

Hey again. I didn't write yesterday because it was sunday. In our house we're not allowed to go onto the computer on Sunday, I dont like that rule but my parents do and so it stays I guess..

For those of you know know my deepest darkest secrets, you know that I have two jobs. I work at Mcdonalds in Rutland around 40 hours a week and at Walmart as many hours as I can pick up. I try to keep myself busy because otherwise I'll get bored and boredom leads to lameness, I guess.

I'm planning on writing on this blog as much as i can, but I also don't want to flood you guys' minds with my silly words, so I'll probably only write 3 or 4 times a week, and not on sundays. I've never done any sort of blogging before and so I dont know what you're supposed to do, but I figure I'll do what I want to since no ones going to read it any time soon. you know?  I have a friend who's super good at HTML and I'll maybe get him to teach me how to make my posts looks super duper.

I don't want to be one of those guys who just writes on a blog so that all his female friends will think he's deep so that he'll get laid, that's why I'm not telling anyone about this. I'm going to try go as long as possible without anyone reading it, and if I can go long enough maybe I'll do stuff where you guys can join in? who knows? not me.

Yesterday I went to a church called the House, I went there because I was working sunday morning but still wanted to go to church. Also a friend of mine was going and she didn't have anyone to go with.  I think Church would be a great place to meet young women, especially the House. It's focussed more on young adults and it has that sort of vibe that's cool.

so I sat down and then a friend from school came and said hi, and then she left and my other friends came and sat down, then two very pretty women came and asked if the two seats next to me were free. of course they were, so I said yes. I didn't want to introduce myself because I didn't think people came to church to meet men, they came to meet God, which is cool, but sucky for me I guess.

Now when I think about dating a woman I think if I'll ever marry the girl, and if it's a no then I dont pursue it. but I have to understand that I may not know, but some people I know would never work, like my Ex's, theres no way.

There's a girl whos name shall remain nameless, but I really like/liked her and we texted alot and said we liked eachother, you know all that playful banter garbage, but later on she started being super stand offish and just not replying to me or whatever so I asked what was up and she said she was just sick and I was like "bullshit" but I didn't say that, I'm too nice. but so I dont think she's going to work out.

That's all for today everyone, thanks

Jesse

I'm not much for writing, but I'm not much for much...

Hey whoever's reading this, I'm going to use this blog for myself, and you, (the reader). I've never written in a blog before, and I've never kept a journal. I've been given alot of journals, by grandparents and the like. One of those had a bunch of cats on it, I'm a dog person so needless to say I didn't write in that one. Now that I'm 18 I figured it might be a grrreat idea to start keeping a record of my thoughts, seeing as I'm so deep and all. </sarcasm> I wrote in my grad write up that I would write a book someday, maybe this is a subliminal way to get started on that long-term goal; but I'm not sure.  I like writing in the first person, I'm not used to it. In school I avoided the first person like the plague. Maybe its because I don't like to have other people looking so deeply into your person, writing in the first person does that. You have to open up your characters when writing in the first, otherwise your writing is boring and drab. 

I bought an iphone recently, just an old one off of Craigslist. I bought it because I thought I had lost my ipod touch (which happened to be under my bed), but that's not the point. I bought it because I wanted to, and thats the kind of stuff you can do when you turn 18 I guess. This sub-topic isn't going anywhere, so I'm going to stop writing on it.

Have a good day,

Jesse